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Okay, I feel like I can't write this post without starting off with a series of disclaimers, the biggest disclaimer here being that I haven't slept last night, so here we go: I am going to sound selfish and I know people in the USA have been dealing with this for much longer. I honestly am only writing this now because while this was still happening over in the USA, the possibility for me to go was even more unrealistic, but that doesn't mean it hasn't bothered me before. And yes, I know I am not the only one who feels this way. I also know I have been lucky so far for seeing as many shows as I have, especially at my age but that knowledge doesn't make me less sad at this moment.





It bothers me knowing that I will never meet Jon. It bothers me that I will never be able to attend such an intimate little show with the man that has been such a huge part of my life just because I happen to be a student who only JUST finished school and started working full-time for the first time in her life. Just like I know it bothers many people out there who really really love him this much and don't have the money for many different reasons. This however is my own blog and I am writing this from my own point of view, so excuse me if it will be disgustingly selfish. I in no way intend it to be. And I can honestly say I am happy for every single fan who gets to meet Jon. It's not that, I swear.

This does lead to the first thing that does bother me though. 'Fans'. Because when looking at the photos after a trip, which is something I often did when it was still possible because you know I love the pain, I found myself wondering many times if some of those people were really as happy as I would be standing next to Jon. And you can ask me if this really matters because it is not a competition, and loving a band is not something that can be measured. But at the same time, knowing what I feel, I just think that yes, in this case it does matter a little bit maybe. It is wrong that only people with money get this opportunity because while being a fan of somebody can't be measured with love, it also definitely can't be measured with money.

Secondly, I just don't understand why it has to be THIS expensive, all the time, for every option. I mean, I get that they book all the fancy hotels and that that is part of the exclusive experience but I honestly wouldn't care less if I had to sleep on a bunkbed in a crappy hostel. I wouldn't care about missing out on the cocktail party and all the other exclusives if it would mean I would get to attend the show and the meet and greet for lets say 1/3 of the price. Or even just a ticket to the concert. I would have taken it, this is all we are going to get this year. For me this would be all about experiencing a very intimate show with JBJ and maybe finally saying hi to the man I love and hate so much.

I guess I am not even specifically against the expensive, luxury options. That discussion is at least as old as the trips themselves. I too would pay for it any day if I could. I am against there not ever being cheaper options for those who can't afford it all. The concert tickets are just as expensive but at least you can decide for yourself if you want to settle for being further down the stadium for a lot less money. The comparison might not be fair but it is the same thing in a way.

And yes, I saw Matt out there on Twitter blaming it all on the hotels, but how would this explain that the non-hotel and transportation package still costs $1500. And if that is about the Guinness tour, well you can keep your beers and your private whatevers. Just give me the man I have loved almost all my life and I could go to that factory in my own time if I really wanted to.

I know that if anything, these are just a bunch of poorly expressed feelings that aren't going to make any difference. Bottomline is that it is what it is. These trips sell out and it's easy money for team Bon Jovi, so why would they give a shit.  Which is something every discussion around Bon Jovi comes down to these days. So I am not going to make false statements about boycotting the band. I will continue saving for next tour to make sure that that is one thing I don't have to miss out on and hate my life a little more for the next couple of months. It's alright, just let me be a bit sad about not ever getting that stupid photo of myself with that grey-haired old rock star. It's just how I feel right now, fueled by a lack of sleep and a last sprinkle of hope that maybe one day it will happen after all.

I again blame this on the man himself because that is easiest to do. I mean, there is nothing wrong with my priorities in life and my actual intention to spend thousands on someone who really doesn't need it, if I could. After all he has been chasing me with his advice to keep the faith. Well Jon, on behalf of Tommy & Gina and myself I just wanted to let you know that it isn't always easy.